Random existence!

On the other side of the morning

Searching for a truth nobody told me

Melancholic memories, emotions estranged

Anxiety, worry, anger, boredom and love

Healing my day, mundane and monotonous

The thorns don’t prick me anymore

Neither do the roses smile at me

I hate to wake up the sun, and the moon too

Celestial pleasure is not what I seek

Neither a jet plane nor a bicycle

Just a bit of rocket science may be

God exists, but only in reincarnated mind and hearts

How the conflagration camouflages the carnage

In this hour’s tiny life blends tomorrow’s uncertainty

And astrology is just an astronomical philosophy.

A lost dimension

My dream can’t reach beyond the green valleys

And the cold northbound wind is blowing me away;

Like a rock, I stand frozen trying to hold the ground.

Imprisoned by time are some memoirs of yours

And my petrified soul is dissolving into their warmth

No conundrums and no doldrums do I see now

The melancholic meadows are effaced

And the fresh dew promise new horizons.

And still if my eyes are not meeting yours

In the priceless elegance of your smile

Will reverberate my heart’s soliloquy.

#FML

Random guy: Am I speaking to A#$$%# Ghosh?
Me: You mean Arnab Ghosh ? (I know my name is a bit tough)
Random guy: No... A#$$%# Ghosh... we have dealt in blah blah with your company (he called the right person!)
Me: Yeah, I remember.
Random: So, you are A#$$%# Ghosh??
Me: No, I am Arnab....
Random: Can you please give me the contact of A#$$%# Ghosh?

WTF!

A very close friend of mine told me about this concept and I found it too interesting to avoid - though some part of it is going to be tough to write, especially the secrets - mainly because I have very few and then for the obvious reason. :P

Anyway, I love introspection.

So here I go: 10 secrets 

1. I love strawberries- Be it strawberry milk shake, ice creams, candies or just raw. It was a childhood flavor which I rediscovered when I visited Mahabaleshwar. When it comes to flavors, I like chocolates the most nowadays but strawberry is a close second. :)

2. I am scared of life - Now life as a whole is too big and abstract to talk about but yeah its scary. I keep telling everyone how to handle it and advising about many things to make our lives better. I invent rules and try to follow them but somehow in certain spheres of life  I fail. What makes me happy is I see visible results when it comes to others. I think I take it too hard on myself and the failure induces the fear in me.  Its a growing learning curve.

3. I hate Mathematics - I have scored the most in this subject in my high school and the least during my engineering. Though I have intense belief in its potential, keep talking about it, see documentaries on it, read about it and also try to visualize it. I have had a steep fall in my interest in mathematics since my school days. I am fairly good at it but that doesn't change anything.

4. I can't remember the words of a song :| - I love songs not for their music or singer. The lyrics always appeal to me and yet I cannot remember it when I try to sing or recollect a song. I suck at it and feel embarrassed at times too. 

5. Emotionally, I am very sensitive - Only a few know this. To others I come across as somebody totally different and feel like Maximum Decimus Meridius :P. Though the effects are visible only within my own comfort zone and I am vulnerable to only those who have access to it. 

6. Being a bong, I don't like Fish or rice - Yes! I haven't found a single guy who has not been ":O" when he comes to know of it. You can probably imagine how difficult it is for me to survive in the Bongland. Apart from these, I guess I show all traits of being a bong - foodie, smoker with some taste in art, poetry etc. 

7. I still wish to win the Noble Prize - LOL! This childhood fantasy still remains and refuses to accept the reality. I belong to a town which has produced 2 noble laureates and that has played a good role in fueling this fantasy. I am a Mechanical Engineer and nowhere close to the path which can fetch me "Noble Prize". I have had many dreams about it too. LOL! Only if Kungfu Panda kind of stuff happened in real life. Sigh! :P

8. I don't know a shit about cooking - I haven't ever failed when I have cooked and I have done it well (I hope the feedbacks were honest). I just have it intrinsic in me and this is not it. I also experiment with new stuff and it comes out well. Probably I need to venture into it more to kiss failure. 

9. I love shopping - And thats why I want to earn a lot. I always clutter myself with more than I need - it brings chaos and confusion. Nevertheless, shopping brings me immense pleasure. I guess its related to my natural trait of finding happiness in anything new. This is something I like the most after food and alcohol. I don't mind if its a feminine trait or whatever. 

10. I am freaking scared of dogs - They are scary and they can smell fear it seems. WTF! I have funny examples of running away from dogs and asking company to drop me home when its dark. 

These are the quick ten I could think of. This wasn't at all that difficult. Now I am sure I have more of such secrets. I guess some of them would not sound like secrets but  don't want to work out more on this. I would surely update this blog as I explore more.

The Lonely Palm Tree

Alone on the top, it stands bold, yet to be bald
Confronting the winds which could only be heard
formidable to her whipping and thrashing
There he stays forlorn, serenading to the waters
And though his voice is silenced by the roaring waves
he does smile and he does cry, in times wet and dry
He watches the people afar, the smoke and the smiles
He promises an experience, wishes a hug in return
But seldom does he get the peace of a new-found love
Someday he would be weakened like the flying fowls
when he would bend the last angle to kiss the ground
And then from miles away would be seen just a memoir
And stories of isolation, valor and vulnerability
The lonely palm tree, standing bold and to be bald.

Check

Last few days remaining in India and this is what I would call a "bucket list" - revisiting the past or doing the undone.

A weekend outside Pune

Aaah it was so awesome, especially after last time's horrible experience. It was beautiful. The crowd was just perfect - not too much or too less. Saw the other beaches as well, trekked for quite a distance. Overdosed ourselves on almost everything - Chicken, Fish, Beer, Bathing, Trek and of course the obvious ones. :). Though the decision to go there was adulterated with some dilemma but in the end I would miss Gokarna for sure

 One of the rare days when you can actually feel "peace" sinking in.

Movie at E-Square -

Have seen most of the movies during the later half of my stay in this theatre. Though I do not like the seats, food or the service so much, the company and the 2 to 3 hrs spent there each time, watching movies good and bad makes it one of the "most-done" things outdoors

Movies can be good or bad, most of the times we don't know about it. Let us remember all those times with the people, events and the time that we spend in those couple of hours.

Visit Leopold 

Leopold Cafe, Colaba, Mumbai - I have been here 3 or 4 times and every time I have loved the hospitality and the crowd.This time I went straight up during the peak lunch hour and no one was there. I was depressed but then I thought that may be I would remember it more 'coz of today and yes, it was superb! I made friends with the waiters there, talking in their language, sharing our love for Mumbai and hatred for all other places, Teachers and Bud down the throat with Gin Chicken (yes its prepared in Gin) and Bombay Grilled Sandwich

You are never lonely, there is another loner somewhere, reach out to him, its easy 'coz he is trying to do the same.

Walk along the Marine Drive, Bombay

Marine Drive! It promises you a splendid time even if you are alone. A walk along the long stretch with a few pit stops facing the sea, watching the waves come and go and rather an unpleasant sight of crabs over the rocks - in the end its a feeling of peace that gets absorbed, pacifying all the noises inside you and streamlining your thoughts - all this without marijuana

A lonesome walk can act as a drug sometimes - all you need to do is 'feel' the high.

Kareem's chicken tikka roll

No one can have just one! Gets even better when you have a tummy. :) This place has quite a few memories - inception of some awesome things in life, forgetting your frustration, getting your dopamine levels high, feeling the awesomeness of street food et alia. They serve the best chicken rolls in the city. If you are in Pune and non-veg connoisseur, you won't regret stopping by Kareem's, East Street, Camp

Thank God man discovered fire!

Yet to do:
Have bread pakoda outside Bund Garden
Shop at Brand Factory, Camp
Hog at Radhika and Oh Calcutta!
Garden Court
FC road Barista - Cafe Americano and smoke
Loni Paratha near the Z bridge.
KFC - over and over again :) :)
Pasta at Peppinos
Movie at Inox with the awesome samosas
Download songs, revamp my music collection
Thousand Oaks on a thursday night
Aloo-paratha at E-square food court.
Not Just Jazz By the Bay on a wednesday/sunday night and probably sing.
Diamond Beer Bar on MG Road - draught beer and the delicious french toast.
Sarangi on East Street.
Suruchi Bar at Hadapsar - cheap booze and egg biryani.
Have ragda at the actual Kalyan Bhel near Law college road
Kiva near E Square.
One trek somewhere around the awesome ghats near Pune.


To Be Contd.

The Twelfth Man

I see you play and rule the field
You scream in joy when you win
and you cry in pain when you lose
My smiles and my tears are all yours
Be it victory or defeat, its mine too
I cheer for you, I help you, I love you
For one day I want to be with you.
Not just the words I Want to hear
But also act and befriend glory
The heat and the rains you dare
I want to learn with you and share
Today I am not inside the ground
Tomorrow I hope to & no more be
The Twelfth Man.